Thursday, March 31, 2011

Refine Me


REFINE ME...

thinking a lot of the refining process....first thing that comes to mind, in my sick little java world, is the refining of the beans...the picking and sorting out the best of the best, and then roasting..refining them to perfection.

In a world so rush, rush and hurry, hurry, searching for constant perfection in everything I seem to forget it all.

Losing my focus, losing my edge, giving way to the dumb stuff and hurrying through it all instead of sitting back, and allowing something more divine to intervene daily with me..

the ultimate refinement...

the Master of java crafting and others of the sorts (like humans) himself.

Who better to refine me...smooth off the rough edges; to polish me up and serve only the finest of me (when I let him that is).

taking a few to sit in the still...allow the refinement today...reminding myself often

to REFINE.


(*awesome Jennifer Knapp song- Refine me...check it- not quite the original but will do!)

Friday, March 25, 2011

Really Figuring It Out

What a journey it has been for this family and getting my Parker back to the real Parker he is; who he has been struggling to be at his fullest for the last few years. I've learned so much from so many different Doctors, dietitians, authors, bloggers and research. It's all started to mold together and take hold. We have finally broken major ground in the medical mystery of the Parks, most recently from a very knowledgeable dietitian. We've gone from "fixing" one problem to the next with this poor kid. First applying the "band aid" of extra iron to a very fatigued, and medically depleted ferritin/iron level. Saw results, then flat lined. Uncovering the celiac disease was HUGE, but only the beginning of getting him healed and back in the game of life. Along the way, we have struggled to make the diet right, safe enough for him, we've hit some snags, uncovered many sources of hidden gluten and were puzzled at why his symptoms seemed to be spiraling. We have a team of Dr.'s, ranging from the Sleep Medicine Dr. who treats him for his severe restless leg syndrome and regulates his much needed iron (compliments of the celiac not absorbing it) and then we have our Gastroenterologist who is overseeing his celiac progress, plus our ENT that treats him for allergies/tubes in the ears and all that nonsense.
After months of being on the new gluten free diet, he was worsening. Our gastro doc. ran a sensitive celiac screening blood test again, showing his levels were elevated (proof that he had been getting gluten.) I can't tell you how frustrating, upsetting that is to find out. To feel so left in the dark on this journey of all these "gray areas" and wondering all the time , "is this ok, or that"? Researching until your eyeballs nearly burn out of your head, only to uncover conflicting advice and reports, and then the biggest whammy..you see in the blood work- it's not working!
I was left to comb through EVERYTHING we had in the fridge, call the manufacturers themselves and really get to the root of it. On top of this, this poor fellow's coming unglued daily, several times a day actually, sending the whole family into a nervous wreck!
I really thought this would be a 1,2,3 fix..he has celiac..go on the diet- bam! results..
After being on this "diet" since November, we have FINALLY unlocked I believe the FINAL piece that fits the puzzle completely and closed the gap.
It all boils down to simplicity of not regulating his blood sugar properly. He seems to be a kid that is extremely sensitive or susceptible to blood sugar spikes and then dramatic drops afterwards; resulting in the most alarming, random freak outs! My favorite freak outs would happen right at pick up from 1/2 day kindergarten..such a wonderful time for your child to go ape on you! ( We previously saw an endocrinologist for this and "tortured" the poor kid with those awful finger pricks and it was so traumatic, I refused to do more and more readings. I saw enough and observed enough from my kid and figured it out for myself! His blood sugars were close enough to borderline for me- thanks, lady!- she was a real help too- another story!:)
It was back to the basics..back- to- school- for -Mommy time. Time to reorganize the diet yet, AGAIN! Not only to remove gluten from everything, (including prescription and over the counter medications- don't get me started on that tangent!!) but now, to incorporate protein & carb balanced meals and snacks! Back to the fundamentals- but with a twist. Instead of a lovely muffin, pancakes or just cereal for breakfast- here, kid..have a steak or some nuts- you need protein!
After explaining to me the reason for the "crashes" from the dietitian, wrapping my mind around the fact that sending him with just a pack of raisins or throwing him an apple for a snack was like handing him a ticking time bomb!
I had to balance that healthy stuff with a source of protein to keep him steady...and whallah! It really is working! What a difference a week makes on a protein & carb balanced diet AND a gluten free diet!
I won't bore you with any more medical details, but the research is coming in..supporting the connection of celiac & low blood sugar and how it's easy to fall in that category. Since most "whole grains" are on the outs of the gluten free diet, and the ones allowed have sometimes the most disturbing of tastes, (you have to get used to them!=), the carbs are primarily starches which has proved a disaster for him. While more tasty and "similar" to the old glutinous crackers, and breads..the truth of rice flour and potato starches is that it doesn't quite sustain you the way the ol' whole grains used to, and definately doesn't keep a steady blood sugar level for a kiddo who's yo yo ing!
There's so many hitches with this and so much to learn everyday, but this I know is true....I have pushed and pushed and not given up until I have gotten answers from Dr's. and help that I know my kid desperately needed..we ALL needed for peace of mind here! It is true, you will do anything for your kid and I won't give up.
Enjoying my kiddo smiling, an extra zing in his step, hugs and kisses and affectionately hand drawn pictures from one very sickly dude most recently, is more than enough fuel to keep me going on this path.
Nuts and other protein for breakfast is enough to fuel him...his love & happiness and improvement is enough to fuel me!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Highlights of the Week....

Here they are folks...highlights from the week. Funniisms the boys have shared and new discoveries here at the Dwyer household..in no particular order...





Jack has discovered the phrase "Ahoy" when playing pirates with his brother. However, his pronounciation of Ahoy is Ahore...;) ha! (laughs amongst yourselves, funny it is!)




*Upon spilling water on Parker's feet outside yesterday, I braced myself for the usual "wrath of Parker", instead he smiled and simply says to his little menacing brother "Oh, thank you Jack, for washing my feet just like the disciples!"




*Parker reports to me today that he loves me all the way to Pluto, around Jupiter and Saturn.:) hugs and heart warming moments..they don't come frequently so they are special. It helps soften the blow of finding one of my most favorite framed Eiffel Tower pieces on the wall shattered- from flying balls and frisbees in the house recently!=/

Monday, March 21, 2011

Monster Jam- I can't Believe I Succummed to It!

family photo! Jack is frightened of the trucks

love this one!



A typical Dwyer dinner..chaos & silliness
at 5 Guys Burgers


from our seats with our glamorous snack!



We've been here ALL day! Going nuts!

Jack & his binoculars:) and we both have ear plugs!
Well we took the plunge and spent the day with the famous Monster Trucks of the racing circuit. The same trucks we start our morning off with EVERY DAY ..7 am and those trucks are roaring on the screen on my way to the coffee pot! Over the last few years, the boys have become obsessed with them, naming each one, owning most of the miniatures, recreating races and crashes and Jack's favorite "Freestyle!" He really does a fine monster truck motor reving as only a 2 year old ALL boy can do!
We spent the entire day downtown at the stadium, walking around on the track and took our first trip out to eat since Parker was diagnosed in November. I was super nervous to order, but all seemed to go without a hitch, and we enjoyed some burgers and fries at 5 Guys. I'm so thankful that Parks likes to eat burgers without buns, because even though I packed his own homemade gluten free bun, I of course forgot it in the car!=/ woopsie! As long as you've got a pile of Heinz ketchup, you're good to go, right?
Back to the stadium we went for the big race and we were there LATE with our own gluten free cheese popcorn, m & m's and ear plugs. Jack had a fever and was up way past his bedtime. My arms were like noodles by the time we got to the car from carrying Jack from the stadium to parking!
The ride home at 11pm, Parker is completely exhausted and passed out and Jack is yelling over to him"Wake up, Parker, wake up!" Amazing how a 2 year old can stay awake that late and all the way home without a snooze!
Anyway, I can say proudly, I have endured Monster Jam, survived and lived to tell of it's greatness.







A Few Shades of Spring

It's 7 in the morning, and I'm in my jammies with a fever and popsicle...and my older brother is dressed like this!!!
(Safari day at school for the Parks- love the fact there is no embarrassment factor at this age!)

St. Patrick's Day parade in Cottleville with my 2 favorite girl pals and my brother!:)


Thursday, February 17, 2011

Valentines Day Cheese Craziness


Valentines at the Dwyers

the Mr. and I decided to nosh on some exported, fine cheeses and a bottle of red. So that's just what we did..a chunk of Vermont White cheddar (obviously not exactly exported, more like imported!), a chunk of fresh Romano, and some lovely smoked gouda. (I was recently told by notorious chef friend Heather:) that it's pronounced "who du". I didn't argue with her because she can out cook Julia Child.

Anyway. I sliced up a nice Granny Smith apple to compliment our Cabernet and cheese fest and delighted in the fact that the kiddos were eating one hand crafted gluten free cheese pizza and would give us a few moments to savour our delightful, valentines snack.

Perfect, simple little Valentines day with my beautiful, pink tulips on the table while I dreamt away in cheese land...I thought this is fabulous!

Well the little tykes wolfed their pizza down and then got curious at our fromage. Soon they were sampling the finest gouda & white cheddar. The Mr. and I were so nervous about our gluten containing crackers and the forbidden crumbs flying anywhere, I don't even remember the taste of the anticipated Triscuit! As I went to retrieve more cheese for the hungry, little tots off my awesome Sanktou knife laying all french across the cutting board, I returned to see baby Jack finger licking a sample of my cabbie. And he reports.."eww..yuck..wine.."

ahhhh...such a wonderfully, romantic Valentines Day. ha!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

More Snow!

and who needs McDonalds playland?!
DooDah came over for a little fort crafting

Amazing snow fort crafted from a good ol' cardboard box o' Pampers!


on top of Dwyer snow shoveling Mountain!



look at these chumps! love it!





reading with Daddy on a snowy night





is it me, or does he resemble a gnome?!


It seems as if we've moved to Colorado! The snow pilage has been outrageous this January. We've had several snowdays, which have been filled with hot cocoa and marshmallows, big breakfasts, and snow time outside!
I am longing for warmer temperatures, we'll see what this ground hog has to say in a bit...